Yogi or Athlete?
Yogi or Athlete? Can you be both?
Carri talks about her 18 year battle with Plantar Fasciitis.
I first got Plantar Fasciitis after starting to play soccer again as an adult. Through college I worked and went to school full time which didn’t leave a lot of room for recreational activities. As soon as I graduated from college in 1996 I jumped right into playing soccer again as if I had never left the field. I’ve always been a runner by nature of other sports I played. I played soccer and softball in elementary school, ran track (slowly) in 7th grade, then played soccer again all through high school. I almost immediately noticed the pain in my left foot, but didn’t think much of it. Funny thing about pain – if it’s there long enough you just get used to it and it becomes a part of your life. We hiked the Appalachian Trail in 1999. I was in pain and often cried at the end of 20 mile days carrying my 30 lb. pack, but of course kept on trekkin’ to the finish – all 2150 miles.
We moved to Vermont in 2000 and since I wanted to do different sports I started snowboarding, snowshoeing up mountains, practicing more yoga and playing volleyball. Eventually though I started playing soccer and running again and when I did, the Plantar Fasciitis resurfaced. I was also a very aggressive player and liked playing with boys, therefore Co-ed was my poison. Co-ed indoor, in particular was fast & furious. I would come home winter nights feeling and looking more like I just played ice hockey! In the morning I would look and feel like an old woman getting out bed hobbling to the bathroom.
My sister-in-law is a PA and told me “You have Plantar Fasciitis and should probably be sleeping with a night splint.” Of course I laughed at the image and never even attempted it…Flash forward to 2015 and here I am doing that very thing!
About a year ago I noticed the pain again, but this time it felt different. Instead of the pain running all along the medial arch of my foot it was more like a stabbing, shooting pain in my heel – in a specific spot. I randomly ran into a Podiatrist “friend” at restaurant one night who grabbed my foot, threw off my shoe and gave me a casual impromptu exam right there at the table proclaiming “You can either stop running or have surgery.” Again, I laughed knowing neither one of those things were going to happen. Well, I can tell you I’m not laughing now.
After too many times of hobbling around the house, crying out of frustration and barely being able to walk normally I finally went to the Doctor. When I saw the ankle & foot specialist office just a couple blocks away from our new apartment in Chicago I thought “Now is the time!”
They did an X-ray and I have a heel spur! No wonder I’m in such pain.
I am told the heel spur will never go away. It’s a real live bone. A calcium deposit that’s there to stay. Now it’s time to stop it’s growth, heal the damaged tissue around it and manage the pain by changing some habits.
Just the simple facts of not working on my feet all day and now having a gym, mean a complete lifestyle change which will make a big difference overall!
To Be Determined
Are my running days over? I can’t imagine, but I can say I am leaning more towards self care and less towards pushing myself above and beyond.
I really want to do the Chicago Marathon next year. Maybe if I really take care these next few months I can, but then again I seem to recall myself saying “I’m going to quit running after the Philly Marathon”…that was in 2011…
Do I really need to do the Marathon? Well …NO, but does one really need to do much of anything? It could be dangerous, but so is doing nothing. Sitting on the sofa or at the computer all day can be dangerous. If there are continual reasons why you can’t do this or that, the next thing you know you’re just not doing anything at all.
The Athlete says “The body can do anything. The mind is what’s in the way. Continue to push, strive and go above and beyond what you think your limits are to reach your goals.”
The wise Yogi also knows the body can do anything and the mind gets in the way. We try to control our mind so that our mind does not control us. The difference is the Yogi also says “Honor your body. Listen to your body.”
If I would have honored my body I wouldn’t have finished hiking the Appalachian Trail. I wouldn’t have run a Marathon, I wouldn’t ride 100 miles on a bike.
I wouldn’t walk 4 miles to yoga, do a 90 minute class, then walk 4 miles back home, but I can so I do. The Yogi says “Just because you can doesn’t mean you should.” The Athlete says, “but why not?”
As you can see, I’m conflicted. The Woman vs. Herself conflict that has plagued me my whole life continues to live on. We shall see how it plays out.